I’m not ready to commit… | I’m Ready To Commit!

“The power of our story could be the key to someone’s healing.”-Dear Divorce, Thank You (even though I HATE you) Sincerely, My Parents' Grown Kid: A Journey of Hate, Healing and Understanding, By Lauren Alicia

Yes…I know it is a long title.

“If I commit, I can’t quit.”-YOU

“You never know who is waiting to be influenced on the other side of your commitment.”-Life

Well…here it is beautiful people…my moment of honesty that cant/wont be filtered (no worries, I don’t cuss, I have other words…truth)…nor can/will I take it back.

Breathe Lauren, Breathe.

My official commitment to my 1st Rough Dream becoming reality… aka this post will be like a ceremony with a little bit of everything!

*key music…

I wrote a book, THE BOOK that I’ve been referring to since the beginning of 2013 (or maybe even earlier…hmm…), and now I am sharing it with the world…officially, Tuesday, August 19th!!!

HERE IS THE COVER!!!!!!

Let me just say that I am proud!

Okay, back to the GYC Girl YOU Crazy Commitment Ceremony…

First off… Girl, what is a rough dream??? (because I know you were thinking it…)

Rough Dreams Definition

GYC SideNote Rant (you know miss these)… Rough Dreams will make you say, “Where Is My Success?” , “Let me get on the elevator,” “The surface is the only thing that matters to me, forget substance,” “I’ll just wear my shower shoes,” “You’re right, I am all over the place,” “If I keep knocking they’ll answer” and the 2 classics, “I don’t have to reap what I sow if I just keep doing good deeds” and “yeah I know ‘What is for me is for me’ but I also want what’s his and/or hers too”…you get the idea…GYC is FULL of posts about YOU/ME/WE getting this thing together!!

I call them Rough Dreams because …

+They’re not glamorous and you’re not sure if it will ever appear to be glamorous

+They’re not what you expected

+They might be hard for those around you to accept

+They’ll make you find 50 (or more) reasons…really good reasons to quit

+ They’re dreams because you know deep down that even though the route is rough, the destination is a dream, it’s beautiful, amazing, ____(insert your favorite description here), and you know that you need to commit!

“When we commit, it’s like that 1 thing Purpose is asking for hits the surface while the rest of you is still marinating in the substance waiting for Purpose to call it too.”

What does it mean to commit?

These following 4 points were my struggle as emotions made me say maybe I don’t publish this, which is the main reason I self-published…yep so that I can have a way out… Can I be real?

**I won’t write GYC Commentary after the points…I’ll just let your thoughts be enough.

1. See the vision, Hear the directions, Take the steps

++ GYC Note To MYSelf (and you too if you need it) // Make it plain… Do NOT overcomplicate this thing Lauren, please stop…RIGHT NOW! Whew!!

Breathe Lauren, Breathe.

2. Take steps until the vision is complete!!

++ You’re not done until the vision is an image YOU can hold!

3. Let passion be present and refreshed!

++ Give it your all so you can be re-filled with greater!!

4. Minimize (or cut off) communication with what distracts you from where (and who) Purpose asks you to commit.

++ Know your priorities beyond the surface.

>>>Tell me what points you would add!!<<<

So…

This is ME taking the next step, commitment.

When I commit, I get quiet…

Focusing on the less to create the greater

Muting the noise that attempts to override the voice of Purpose and direction

Choosing to be guided by what already lies within

It’s been nurtured to maturity

         Although I do have my moments…

But this is The Moment that I shall take

Hustle it until the vision of victory is part of my history

and stepping stones for my future

I’ve let the pain of the past not be told because all I wanted to do was hate it

Now it’s time to turn the page

And welcome you to this part of my story…

A Journey of Hate, Healing And Understanding

More completely Dear Divorce, Thank You (even though I HATE you) Sincerely, My Parents’ Grown Kid: A Journey of Hate, Healing And Understanding

This is only the beginning.

HERE IS THE BACK COVER!!!

Now Available for Pre-order on Amazon.com to be released Tuesday, August 19, 2014, the day before the reason this journey began (my parents’ wedding day)!

Stay tuned by following DearDivorceThankYou.com!!! Watch out for interviews, articles, journal videos, posts & posters, and how you can join and help me promote!!

“ I can’t stop until I see the win, you’ve felt achievement before so can you be patient enough to wait, dedicate and commit until you feel it again? Your answer better be YES.”-My Note to Self

GYC (unnecessary) SideNote // I’m loving adding in these gifs…!

Thank you everyone for your support, patience and blessings!!

Last Note (and I’m done…)

What if GYC-GirlYOUCrazy.com was unintentionally intentionally created to bring me to this point and keep me going? What if the thing(s) you’re doing right now that you might think no one is listening or everybody is watching me not be who I WANT to be, or ______(you tell me…) is unintentionally intentionally paving the way to your dreams into reality… Honestly, that “What-if” is actually (or probably) “What IS.” One day we’ll see and be able to feel the vision of how each step was a puzzle piece designed to create a masterpiece…that looks like the most amazing version of the person in the mirror!

What if just might be what is…

I appreciate you all soooooooooooooooooooooo much!!

Defeating Crazy with Courage…watch me commit and hold me to it,

Lauren Alicia, GYCGirl…Getting her Author on!

P.S. Here’s a preview of the posts you’ll see on DearDivorceThankYou.com

How to Walk Worthy

“Honesty of self will always look good on you.”-Your Mirror

“Worthy is an attitude formed within, stemmed from truth and carried out.”-The definition of worthy

I think one of my most used phrases of GYC is definitely  “walk worthy”…

Whether you are the person saying,

“Yes Girl,”

“Here we go again…”

Or “what is she talking about???” 

You’ve seen it, and agreed or disagreed with it!

It’s cool… either way that’s why I’m writing this post…

One night, last week, I was attempting to go to sleep…pjs on, lights out, computer off…but my thoughts kept going!!

I’m thinking what is left to say in this day…and I soon realized… what was left to say was a reminder for tomorrow and all the other days to follow:

Walk worthy where I’m called, no matter how I’m feeling or decisions I’m facing.

And then,

The “How to” instructions started pouring in…and I just have to share them with YOU!!!

Side Note: The content of this post was written in the dark, on my phone, and in a text message draft. “When the inner self is talking…let it talk and you better listen!”

So, lets get into it!!!

How to Walk Worthy

1.   Know who you are.

I know it’s simply stated (often) but many times the truth of it is found in what do you answer to? There are times when a situation will happen and YOU, ME, WE may respond like humans, which may be out of character but nevertheless…it happens, and people may try to trash/take/mar/diminish/strip you of WHO YOU say YOU ARE.  But when the drama cools down, everyone goes their separate ways, and you’re left with your own thoughts… do you know who you are outside of people’s commentary.

GYC Side Note: Over the years, I’ve noticed that people will say certain things to me because they know it takes a lot for outside comments to bother me…and I will simply carry on. BUT as I started to grow in WHO I am and realize different depths of my worth…the things people said still didn’t bother me but the fact that people thought they could say these things to me…DID, it demonstrated what I allowed/tolerated, which didn’t affirm/agree/uplift my worth and who I know I am. If I continue to allow them to be present in my life or present as if nothing happened…well, YOU tell me!

Because I know who I am, I am going to walk worthy.

2.   Know what you stand for.

When we know who we are…what we stand for follows.

3.   Know what you deserve.

When we know who we are, what we stand for…what we deserve  shall not be compromised, even when LIFE happens.

4.   Admit to yourself when you are weak.

When life happens and/or you feel like you lack in abilities or courage, etc. admit it to yourself, be honest, allow for error, forgive yourself…just because we know WHO we are doesn’t make us perfect but it will continue to qualify us as worthy.

5.   Welcome strength.

After you admit when you’re weak…welcome strength because it comes from within…and will always be available.

We are worthy of strength when we’re weak. Keep walking…life isn’t over!

6.   Encourage yourself.

Everyday, we live an inspirational story. What’s your story?

7.   Remind yourself daily, hourly, in times of focus and un-focus that WE, YOU are designed with great purpose and have been enabled to fulfill it.

8.  Respect yourself, your journey and the journey of others...we are all in the process of something.

9.   Take joy like medicine.

10.                Remember the fact that you are designed with purpose means your life has promise...allow it to be fulfilled.

And lastly,

11.                Keep your head up, throw your shoulders back and believe that you're worthy, humbly with confidence.

Defeating Crazy with Courageous,

Lauren Alicia… Miss GYCGirl…Walking Worthy!!!

P.S. All the crazy in the world couldn’t stop the courage that lives within...so demonstrate it!

Live YOUR Worth.

When a Stranger Lingers... Conclusion: Please Excuse the Strangers (I’m getting my life together)

Please Excuse the Strangers

It’s like Moving Day or

Season

In my life…

They’re moving out

I’m moving in

And fully taking

Residence

Self- inventory,

Reality check,

YES

YES

I am ONLY

Accepting the truth of…

ME

Strong, Bold, Confident

YES

YES

YES

No longer settling

For foolishness

I’m done being a fool

Relating to funky attitudes

that

No longer serve

A profitable purpose

…You’re excused

Now enter the room of

NEW

Welcome!

Here are a few ground rules:

No More Strangers Lingering

I know what is here

So don’t try to hide behind

Memory

I’m focused on

Meaning

I decided that I will not be keeping my enemies close to me…

+That’s STUPID and welcomes paranoia!

Bad company corrupts me.

+I’m done being funky

Abusing myself with self,

Well…

I’ve recognized my worth

Found out that I am designed

PRICELESS

Therefore,

I will act as such

So please excuse the strangers

No more of them lingering

I separated what actually belongs to me…

In this moment

You’ll see old and new things

Properly in place

With some type of explanation

That only I need to understand

Some things have meaning beyond memory

And

Some things are not as important as their meaning

I’ve recognized

We’ve been given feelings to feel

Not to be used as a guide

But a tool of indication,

When to let go and when to hold on

So if you look around…

You’ll see,

I’m moving forward,

Accordingly

It took strength to say

I am NO Longer holding on to dead weight

Being stuck with whose stuck

And satisfied in that place

If I wanted change and to keep growing

Find my pride pushed to the side

And a mirror constantly in my face

If you want change Girl…

Start with YOU and Your world

Do you know the people that you call friend,

Including yourself?

Are the memories you’re holding on to…

Hindering you from possessing your present?

Have you looked around the room

And actually noticed...

Change?

Well…

When a stranger lingers

It leaves things undefined

And your open mind

A little more open

Beyond focus and purpose

Questioning worth and

Searching through these opinions

For truth

But finding a questionable you

“How have I let this go on for so long???”

Well, here is your moment

It’s moving season

So

Please excuse the strangers

We no longer need them

I’m getting my life together

And PURPOSE is FOREVER

THE PRIORITY.

I’m done giving permission to what doesn’t belong to me.

Unfinished Mosaic of Me

Am I willing to surrender

the broken person of me

for the love

for the beauty

of a mosaic of me?

Designed parts from the past

used to inspire

paths of my destiny

created and continues

to be the making of

something beautifully

with a name

where all bitterness is erased

for the sake of sanity…

The depths of me

Pieces you cannot see

What I have yet

And am longing to be.

No one remembers birth

but we all have a long-lost picture

and proof in the mirror

given tools to pursue

life to experience

mistakes to forgive

and lessons showing you have actually lived.

But am I willing to be and acknowledge the mosaic I was designed to be?

Parts from my past used to inspire that, which is in me

If someone asked

“What will You do with all of You?”

what would be my response

I’m pretty sure the mind would ponder

like yours is now

and propose a new question

Am I ok that all the inner workings of me are not released?

And am I working for that to be?

If a voice whispered

“decide now,

what is important”

Would I do it like laundry?

want from need

desire from envy

and not of other people

but envious of what I know

I’m meant to be

Caught in a glimpse of the future

Vision clouded of the present

Frustrated

I’m still here

Contemplating while the world is waiting

Am I willing to be the mosaic of me?

Let the pieces fall where they hit

White space

From the past saying “fill me”

because you’ve learned

Empty space for the present

saying “live me”

you’re worth it

and

Future saying “wait for me,

I’m worth it”

Ditch craziness for courage

Apparently to some

It all looks the same

I’m nothing but a mere mosaic

Unfinished

Designed from love

Now agreed to be

All of the reason I was formed

I see white space all around

saying “paint me”

There is more to do

Now I’m left with a question

That will forever

remain in my remembrance

________________(insert your name here)

What will You do with all of You?

I go where I'm called, not invited.

 Week 1(of 4) of GYCGirl...Speaks!

“I go where I’m called, my dreams removed the need for an invitation.”-The Truth that I live…GYCGirl…Speaks!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hr7e-N3Fs8o&feature=youtu.be


Find us on Facebook.com/gyc.girlyoucrazy for “Talk about it Tuesday”---That’s right, Question for Answers! Join me there!!!!

Credits: 

Week 1 of GYCGirl...Speaks!
Title: I go where I'm called, not invited.
Subtitle: I go where I'm called, my dreams removed the need for an invitation.

Video editor: Gmcfosho
Graphics: Lauren Alicia, founder & owner
Music: www.Danosongs.com
Jewelry: www.PrisAppeal.com 

Another Chance to Dream

“I didn’t settle, it paid off...and I got another chance to dream.”-YOU, Me, We…speaking as Victorious Winners

“I went into the battlefield…too early, realized the equipment I had was for the pre-battle…and I went over there.”-Memoirs of Another Chance to Dream

I didn’t lose focus, my heart just expanded.

Sometimes we think we’re only given one dream, one BIG goal to achieve, you dream a new dream after we reach the “top”…

Or so I thought!-It’s cool, I’ll be the honest one here, whatev’s.

It’s that moment when we feel the need to give whatever “it” is, all we have. Then when we do, and the results don’t appear to be in our favor, we go back to drawing board and wonder…:

“Was this really my big dream?!?!?”

Maybe I need to try a new route, maybe I need to do this, or maybe I need to do that? Maybe, maybe…Maybe!

But in the moment of thought...reevaluating/reflecting/just really thinking about how YOU, Me, We got here…

We pause

Side Note: This post is not about getting rid of the bigger dream but recognizing you have been given room for other dreams in between.

GYC Personal Story (that will make sense…if you want it to)

I know I’ve talked about running track…and discontinuing “that” but you should know, I played soccer next (for a moment).

Honestly, I’ve never wanted to play team sports…because it required a team effort…all at the same time, not like your appointed/designated/given time on the track.

I learned what it’s like be on a team and need a team to win. Class projects can need teams (groups) but when it's all said and done, it may be a lot of work but you can do it all yourself (been there, got the t-shirt to prove it)…BUT it's pretty hard to win a game all by yourself.

“Girl I don’t care about you playing soccer!”---Just wait…

When I first started, I played on the indoor soccer team where the coach explained my role/position on the field as all of them… “You’re fast enough to play the entire field (of course the field was much smaller than outdoor) so that’s your job when you’re out there”…and I did, although I was terrified and setting myself up to possibly be embarrassed (no, I did not play this sport before hand). ---And yes, my dad flipped and was all “Girl YOU Crazy” as did other parents and coaches from the track team…I never needed or more importantly wanted sports to get into college or be my career. *Quick Note: I knew enough about myself to be myself.*

Indoor soccer was my 1st forced and known encounter with versatility (giving all I had at one time)…yep!

But what I learned was…

Versatility opens your eyes to many things… but when you’re so focused on the one big dream…it gets hard as you appear to have moved on from waiting and preparing for the big dream. Even in starting GYC, I was asked many times about my dream to be a shoe designer and if that was still there…it is.

However,

Really, really Quick Rant…I had to…

One day I sat down to really think about all the things I wanted to do (after I realized it wasn’t time to pursue shoe design in the way I had planned)… 

A vision of me doing these other things (pre-Big Dream) started to form as I began to start all of these ventures such as writing a book…no, not “Don’t Take the Elevator…” which you should read, share and print…gift…all of that…have fun!

As these visions birthed as my own and not as ventures that I wanted to propose to businesses, I realized that I got another chance to dream, think and live more than one dream, be the steward over more than one gift and realize that it all can and will happen in its timing.

Example: The Truth about GYC Girl YOU Crazy

GYC was no way near my idea of giving back nor the non-profits that I had dreamed about owning and running after I was full on grown (and had all of my businesses in full swing). HOWEVER, as GYC began to take form in front of you all…as it still does today (6 months strong and counting), a friend of mine told me that GYC Girl YOU Crazy is just like me.

Open your eyes to more…you never know what is waiting to be birthed RIGHT NOW! The bigger dream is amazing but the journey can be greater.

What do people always say on Twitter…“Be the YOU…YOU always dreamed of being…today”---I don’t know something like that… well…that’s the GYC Girl YOU Crazy version of it (quote me)!

GYC Last Thoughts

Every now and then again…You, Me, We need to wake up and get lost in our dream(s) and the possibility of all of them happening… by developing their details.

Live and pursue YOUR own dreams for the love of YOUR sanity.

“I tear up at the thought that my heart had room to dream more dreams.”-Lauren Alicia

We always have Another Chance to Dream…as long as we have today.

"Print me"

What is for me is for me!

“What is for me is for me, I might have to fight but I won’t have to compete…The fight is fixed because I was designed for this!”-YOUR Truth

 

“Follow after your own and your prize will not be revoked.”-YOUR Present & Future (It seems like they talk a lot…)

When you hear “what is for me, is for me,” what do you think about???

A. A way to cope with rejection?

B. Preparing for (possible) disappointment?

C. I wish they would just shut up, and face the facts that they were rejected?

D. Something people say when they don’t know what to say in disappointing moments?

E. The pep talk before you go into an audition, job interview, business meeting, test…any type of pressured situation?

 OR

Girl YOU Crazy…None of that!!!--- “What is for me is for me”…is simply the truth. No disappointment or rejection involved…Hmph!

Now that I have your attention… Let’s talk about it!

As I gathered my thoughts together about this topic, I was reminded of the choices we have, the decisions we make…

and the WHY!

+Why did I make this decision?

+Why am I living out this decision?

+Can I change my “why” later?

+Did I ask “why” before I made the decision?

+Can I justify my “why”?

ALL OF THAT!!!

And in all of that…you think about “did I make those decisions because I needed to or because I wanted to and I could…so I did.”

Hmmm…

You ever heard the phrase... "Get out of your own way!"???

Yes, No, Maybe…What?

It’s cool because I will be referencing other clichés that I may or may not word properly (I get close but I do better when I make up my own…yea)

Well…

Side Note: We are going on a journey in this post, much like a conversation with me that goes in many circles…Go get some snacks! But YOU will be happy when you get there…

And back to it!

When YOU, ME, WE start thinking about our why’s…”Get out of your own way!” makes you think…maybe you even get a little defensive but nevertheless… when you hear it, you wonder maybe “I am in my own way…”or “were my ‘whys’ justified…do they make sense???” (Hmm…oh, its just me huh?…)

I realized that YOU, ME, WE get in OUR own way, when YOU, Me, We forget -----> "What is for me is for me. "

      Such as:

+We start to look around and think about what we don't have…

+Looking around at what others have…thinking that if we had what they had then…

+Maybe I should take some of the paths they took…it seemed to work for them…

Not recognizing that what we DO have is more than enough to help lead us to the dreams that live within us.

GYC Commentary…but YOU, ME, WE Know that it is a Rant:

Everyday we have choices that will either move us forward, keep us where we are, or move us backwards. It is the decisions that have justifiable whys’ that “keep us looking at our own paper”…and believing “if not this one, the next.” All the cliché phrases lead to knowing that what is meant for you to have… you will have if you realize that it is meant for you to have.

Some of the reasons why people stop going after their dreams is because they’re not sure if they have a right to it…right now. But you will never know what you have a right to… if you don’t put some seeds in the ground and water them…

Last thoughts on “What is for me is for me” (and I’m done with my journey):

I’ve realized that I can make my own mistakes, walk down the wrong path, include the wrong people, and say the wrong things…but my experience is my own experience that has built me up to be the person I am today, and walk towards the dreams and goals I’m designed to accomplish. What is for me is for me and I don’t have to compete.

 The route I take may not be popular and not include everyone but it is my own story and I will tell it whatever way I please. Yes, yea, sure, absolutely, I am tempted to quit, stop, look around, compare but when it is all over, I want what belongs to me and me alone. Therefore, I fight my own fight to get my own prize. Sure I have helped and will continue to help others along the way but that is also a part of my fight…what is a part of yours?

 

“What is for me is for me and I don’t have to compete.”

Here are some GYC Quotes for Thought and Deposit…that’s right take it all the way to the bank baby! HA!:

“If you have seeds with enough sense to plant them and patience to water them…you are the richest person!”

“Remain in remembrance of your own dream and purpose.”

“Don't get caught in a plan that is not connected to YOURS for they will be the only one that moves forward. ”

-GYC Girl YOU Crazy